Through these video recorded interviews, I am beginning to see a much deeper complexity in people than I thought possible. When I have caught glimpses in individuals in the past I have often been surprised, then fascinated - sometimes to extremes. My colleague called it a "creative crush". She says it happens on every film set.
I'm not sure how to feel about this. Not good at the moment. I seem to have, perhaps arrogantly, considered myself the ultimate in complexity. Anyway, I'm not comfortable.
But it might explain some of my interest in theatre making - in characters that are reduced compared to reality and where I can see the layers being built. I love to watch actors putting on the cloak of character, perfecting a mannerism and pouring the whole (but ultimately simplified) being into a moment of meaning.
It is interesting that the simplified, "flat" medium of the screen reveals even more of the complexities of real life.
- Eye Contact: On some occasions an unexpected emotional connection occurs, and can be overwhelming.
- Theatrics: The theatre has been a school of meaning-making. Layer on layer of elements to the same end.
- Control Freak: My compositional style is based on controlling as many elements as possible. But how does this relate to instantaneous expression?
- The Safer Intimacy: Some forms of intimate communication are "safer" than others and facilitate a greater degree of emotional freedom.
- Meaning Making: Meaning must surely be found somewhere?
- What will I want to know next?: This document will live on. What are my own hopes for learning from it?
- Video for you: Manipulated video allows an art-i-fact of the moment in time.